Demanding An Alternative

Most would think that at 640lbs, 38, gay, broke, broken, uninsured, dispirited, virtually unemployed, living with my dad, taking 7 medications a day, and unable to perform some of the most basic hygiene actions, that my life is hopeless or the very least useless. Most days I would agree with most people...Just not today!

Today is the day I start sharing with whomever dares to read, listen, or experience, exactly how not hopeless and how not useless I am. For no other reason than because like every human being, I exist. Today I exist to stand up, if only in my mind, and demand and alternative. How I exist, how I've existed is why today is the day a new order of hope, compassion, understanding, and above all choices will begin for me and hopefully for many others.

I have so much to tell of how I got to where I am but more importantly about where I am going. My blog posts will be in no chronological order, but when i remember to I'll throw in some approximate dates to give a frame of reference. I'm not a writer, I can't spell, and I'm not even sure I know what syntax is, so please be patient with my words.

As you read....I give you complete permission to laugh, cry, shout, scream, or pray. I however do not give you permission to judge! Because after all this blog is about my story of survival. So before you scratch that itching need to judge, ask yourself...What lengths you would go to...to stay alive.